Happy 33rd

this pasted thursday was my birthday. it was a great day. which is nice because a lot of my most recent birthdays have ended with a feeling of disappointment. but this year was different for two reasons. one, for the past year i thought i was 33. as it would turn out this was my 33rd birthday. so, in a sense i get a do over. i am so excited about that because this past year has been one of the more difficult of my life. which brings me to the second reason for the great day. at the end of last year i finally decided to deal with all the emotional garbage that having a baby can bring to the surface. i spent what felt like most of my "33rd' year angry and depressed. i learned through counseling and a bible study that fear was the driving force behind it all. a huge weight was lifted off my heart once i learned that. i still struggle with the fear at times, but it no longer rules my emotions. thus, allowing this to be one of the best birthdays i've had in a long time. having dinner at uchi was a huge help as well. it's one of the only foods that makes me truly happy, that and double chocolate brownies baked by my sweet hubby.

thank you sushi.